Currently Named Syarfawesome. legally 8teen.
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Not a perfect girl or a typical girl-next-door. Always gets her heart(❤)b r o k e n by stupid choices. I sometimes don't learn my lesson and end up regretting it. I hafta to admit that i want to experience the Adrenaline Rush through my veins and lastly i've always made someone a Priority in my life when i'm just an Option to theirs cause my definition of Happy is when EVERYONE around me is happy (: Things don't go well for me sometimes but when i reminisce my past and look at people around me i then understand how amazing my life could be. And maybe, just maybe i like myself being imperfect :)
-Syarfawesome

NEVER make someone a PRIORITY in your life, when you are ONLY an OPTION in theirs (:
A VIPrimadonna (:

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Its amazing how promise can be easily broken,people can be easily trusted and friends to be easily forgotten.

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Designer: Syarfawesome
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Omg! Its been so effing long!! Hahaha! I just found an app which can blog. So i think its good. I'll be back in blog i guess? Hahaha! See u soon awesy!

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YESSSAA BEBEYYYY!

I GOT THT NOKIA 6760 SLIDE ALRDY!!! HEHEHE!

thnks ibu!

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Ibu i want this phone. Pleaseeee? pretty please. i promise i pay u back when i get my pay? hehe!

GDNYTEEEE!

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I NEED HUGGGGGS!!! :(

credits: him

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Hey ho let's go! I'm at coffee shop behind my blk hanging out! Gg hme soon! Tmr working morning! Hafta wake up at 5.30am! Damn! Dun even know want to slp or not! K update later when I use the laptop! Bye now! Love u miss you!

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Why can't i be 'HER'?

Many times in my life, i wondered to myself,
why can't i be 'her'?

'HER', is not a specific someone.
At different points of my life, i envy random girls that crossed paths with me. Some have the looks, some have the money, some are lucky all the time, some have the freedom, some have the most supportive friends, some have the best relationships.

Every one of them just seem to have a life easier than mine.

Why can't i be 'her'?
I also want to be pretty.
I also want to be lucky.
I also want to have the most supportive friends.
I also want to have the money.
I also want to have a happy and problemless relationship.
I also want to have opportunities to do the things i love.
I also want to have life easy.

Who wouldn't want all this?
Yes, i look like i have everything. I have a complete family. I have a boyfriend who loves me. I have friends. I have a blog with quite a number of supportive silent readers (I've seen lots of undiscovered blogs out there with gorgeous faces. Sometimes, i count myself lucky, that such a normal face and average blog like mine gets you all reading). I've average income from my blog just enough to support myself.

But why, is it only me, that at times, i feel that i have nothing at all?

Why do i feel that i have to work harder than anyone else for all that i have?

Why is it that other people get what they want without asking for it? Why is it that i wish so hard for something i want, yet never get to it? Why am i never lucky?

Why do other people, with lesser money, lesser health, lesser assets, seems to be happier than me?





Am i really fated to have such a difficult life?
What else? My health is already so bad now. What will i become when i get old?




Sometimes i wonder how i handle so much drama.
Sometimes i breakdown at night,
then in the morning i wake up and pretend everything's fine.




My new year wish?
To escape to a whole new world, as someone else, with a better and easier life.

Does anyone know that I always try so hard to go through every single hurdle life throws at me? Yes i went through all of them, but im tired now.

I've been believing that after going through bad things, life will give you good things. I think i've reached my life quota of bad luck. When is my good luck ever gonna come? Guess what? I think it'll never reach me.






If i were to live my life all over again,
I wish i wasn't me.

From IceAngel

I love reading her blogs. i would love to be like her.
and yeahhhhh wad she typed is wad i had to feel. except the coloured ones.


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